Robert Pattinson is hot.
I am 25 and in lust with a 19 year old actor who plays a vampire.
Yes, that's right. Two days ago I turned 25. You heard me. A quarter of a century. Half-way to fifty. It's the age where first loves have come and gone at least a couple of times. It's the age where private health care deems you financially secure enough to handle your own health care. It's the age where a young person's personality and characteristics finally settle into adult permanence. The age where your body starts to store fat instead of easily releasing it. The age where travel to wild, exotic places has done at least a couple of times. This is the age where most young people start thinking about falling in love, getting married, getting a mortgage, and carving out some sort of career for themselves. It is the age that is the most vital in determining greatness. By 23, T.S. Eliot had already composed his greatest poem, The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock. At 24, Cate Blanchett had already performed for the Sydney Theatre Company and graduated from NIDA. Eileen Chang wrote her most infamous short stories by 24. In contrast, I feel like I'm a half-completed project; I've got the base for the pie but I have to go back to the supermarket to buy the filling.
It's all completed unfounded, of course. At any critical turning point a feeling of unsettledness is inevitable. At this age I am much more calm in the way I go about things. I am less likely to act on impulse (except on stage of course) and I think most actions through. I know what I want now and am less likely to compromise in order to get it. My focus is better and I can, both practically and mentally, concentrate on one activity/path for a reasonable amount of time. I can witness my own unsettledness and neuroticism and understand that it's merely a moment and that it will pass.
Being 25 is knowing that I'm on my way.
The night before last, on my birthday, I watched La Vie En Rose. Marion Cotillard's performance as Edith Piaf, and the film itself, were inspirational. It made me wonder whether I would ever be capable of pulling off a performance like that. It's a massive commitment to be that dedicated to one's art. It's scary to think about one day actually reaching the epitome of one's art, but also incredibly exciting. At the moment however, I think getting through our Greek tragedy in class is more than enough!
As I'm sure you could predict, I don't completely agree with that list of things that have/ should have happened by 25, but a few of them, like being more sure of yourself, I'd probably agree with.
ReplyDeleteMeanwhile, Twilight was sooo bad! I laughed throughout the whole thing, because it was so unintentionally funny. It was really small budget, because they made it before the books became insanely big. Kind of good how crap it is - just like the books!!
And yeah Robert is super hot. And he's actually a lot more charming, funny, likeable as himself than in the movie. You should listen to his commentary on the DVD. He basically makes fun of himself (and thereby the movie) throughout the entire thing!!
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Well I think that list is more to do with my impression of what society wants for me by the age of 25...there are lots of things I don't think I've achieved yet or even want right now. And yes, Twilight was an absolute laugh the whole way through - I don't want to go anywhere near the book. So I was surprised to find that Cedric Diggory was actually very, very appealing...
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